Yesterday, Today & Probably Tomorrow.

Things can only get better.

This reflects my mood.

hidden identity.

summersummersummer.

photography boredom.

Yesterday was awesome, SAW was amazing. I apologised in advance to the guy sitting next to me, for my excessive screaming on rides. They video you on the ride without you knowing... mine and Sam's facial expressions were priceless.
Spending all day in 32 degrees has given me a good tan :>
I can't forget the boys in the tight full body suits who stood under tidal wave with us numerous times, it got so hot we decided to get soaked.

The journey home was a bit of a disaster, sitting on the floor of the train in the rush hour, while cramped commuters stood around us. The hour journey back turned into 3, it had to be our train that had signal failure, an ill driver rushed to hospital and all passengers evacuated. Well, Lydia and I did our best to eves drop, but this all sounded too unrealistic. We sat on the floor of the station tunnel for 40 minutes waiting for some sort of update. In the end we gave up waiting, got 2 tubes to Victoria and then found another train out to Bromley South.

We were too tired to care about anything.


oh, and this is Miss Rackley. One of the most amazing people I know.



She's so geniune, pretty and fun to be around. &&& She gives the best company♥

My inspiration.

Now that's what I call natural beauty.


Miss T Swiftttttttt.♥

Get over it, we're not world class football players. Germany deserved it. Although, the final score was 4-2- the referee was just a blind prick. It quite clearly crossed the line.

I'll be on this tomorrow;


I promised Sam I would.
:) I'll let you know how it goes.

Sitting in direct sun for 7 hours hasn't done me a lot of good. My shoulders are painfully burnt, and I feel so light headed. I didn't drink that much because i've been feeling so shit all week.
I didn't smoke, either.
I didn't feel like making the effort to talk to people I didn't know.
Luke worringly drank about 28 units without eating anything, and Lucia.. well. A lot more. I must never leave her alone like that, ever again. I'm worried because shes not replying to my texts. I hope she's home safe...
It was still a good day.
I have to thank Sam.


Sam is by far, one of the nicest people I have ever met.


~~

A day like today.

One day you’re going to want that specific girl. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and love you the only way she knew she could. That girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else appreciated. That girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever.
And by the time you realize that’s the girl you’re looking for, she’ll be with the guy who already knew.

Wonder.

I'm not confident
I act it, apparently. But I'm not.
I'm not really smart. I can be. But I don't show it.
I can be really stupid at times.
And impatient.
I'm never as funny as I feel.
I'm not pretty.
I let emotions get the better of me.
I'm not mentally strong. I'm aware.
Big dreamer, little motivation.
I like guidance,
But I like doing things alone.
I become attached easily.
I hate change.
But I get bored of routine.
I'm not really a perfectionist.
Because I simply give up.
I'm not as nice as i'd like to be.
I miss a lot of people.
But that's life.
I'm too analyitical.
I hate my posture.
If I act annoyed with you- most of the time, truth is i'm annoyed with myself.
I find it hard to trust people.
I'm actually quite shy.

and if I say it, I mean it.
with the exception of the mistakes I make.
There's enough of them.

______________________________________________________________________________

My last exam is over, summer has started now.
Someone was in my exam today, sitting 2 desks away. I wonder what he'll be doing next year.

'The sound of the settling'

Anyone fancy sitting a 2 and a half hour statistics exam for me tomorrow? I haven't felt this ill in months, i've concluded I do have a shit immune system. I never really got hayfever before now; and the air outside certainly isn't helping.
Four 50 minute periods of stats this morning has left me brain dead.
I'm starting to feel anxious about recieving the results in August, thinking about it.. I haven't actually done much revision. At all.
Thank god i'm on holiday when the results come in. I want to open them alone.

I think summer is going to be a real break through. I have a lot of things I need to put aside, or behind for good. I'm glad that for most of the summer I'll be far away from London. Non-Londoners think i'm crazy for saying it, but I guess everyone is bored of where they live. Everyone enjoys a change.

I'll be away for nearly 4 weeks in total! Spain for 10 or so days with Lizzie, we're staying out in a family friends villa, right near the beach, own pool, and the area apparently has a good night life! After that, home for 2(manic clothes washing days) and then off to Cornwall for 9 days again with Lizzie, the same as every year. Friends I met last year have asked me to join the surf school, so bring on the hot surfer boys ;)
I can actually surf, it's not for a joke, or just to see the guys... I want to be taught properly, and get a lot better. I'll be trusting those young instructors with my life!
Thenn the day after I get home, (hopefully) i'm catching an early train with Sam from London Euston to Manchester, yayayayayy. I really miss it there. we'll be staying with Sam's relatives not far out from the city, and I'll be up there for a few days before school starts again.....

Urgh, sixth form.

I have other things to do.
;xoxo

Longggg day.

I'm not gonna' lie, I just got really emotional after watching an hour episode of eastenders.

I'm tired, unwell and pretty lifeless.
Carys and I went skateboarding, seriously. It was a joke at first but I must admit, we have skill. I am the sort of person who is up for anything. There were a few near painful accidents, when we decided to both fit on the skateboard and flip it up on one side. Everyone else sunbathed and looked over disapprovingly- They could only be jealous. :)

The England game got me on a high, it was actually really intense! I couldn't watch the added time. However, I think this will be the end of the road for the team. Realistically, if they have a real chance in this competition, they should have won by about 5-0 up today, to a country which has maximum 2 million population. They appear to lack so much passion compared to Portugal, for example.

I'm surviving on 3 hours sleep at the moment, my room was so ridiculously hot last night after leaving windows shut and the laptop on all day. I was staring into space until about 3am, unable to fall asleep.
I've only got until Friday; then i'm done for summer!

Sam invited me to a prom on Friday night, I feel like I haven't been out properly in a while. I hope it's a good opportunity to meet some new friendly faces.

It's 8 but whatever, I'm shattered.

;xoxo

'Throwing glitter all over your boyfriend and screaming "EDWARD!"'

Procrastinating.

Twitshit.

Lucia has just been over. After looking through my wardrobe and sitting on facebook, she left me with one thing..

I've been bullied into using Twitter.
No joke.
I am now open to stalkers who, for some obsurd reason, may hold some interest in finding out about the shit and pointless actions which occur in my day to day life. I have now joined the other half of the world population who have been dragged into this. It's sad, I know.


http://twitter.com/RosieChapmanxo

boredom.

10 things you want;
- Lottie back
- Decent GCSEs
- To go on Safari
- Macbook Pro
- A new electro/acoustic
- Longer, thicker hair
- Black paint
- Hugs
- Notice board
- A new 'tab' key
9 musicians/bands you love;
- Scouting For Girls
- John Mayer
- Colbie Caillat
- The Cribs
- Maroon 5
- The Kooks
- Arctic Monkeys
- Jamie T
- The Courteeners
8 things you do everyday;
- Check my phone as soon as I get up
- Take/edit photos for portfolio
- Fall over
- Listen to music
- Play the guitar
- Attempt school related work
- Talk to Lucia
- Worry about something
- Wash my hair. (OCD)
7 things you enjoy;
- Walks on the beach
- Long train journeys
- Going abroad
- Adventures away from London
- Concerts/gigs
- Time to myself
- Meeting new people
6 things that will always win your heart;
- Honesty
- Shyness/modesty
- Being understanding
- Nice smile
- Being passionate towards a hobbie/interest
- Similar music taste
5 favorites: movie, song, book, food, season;
- Twlight..
- Someone Else’s Life - Joshua Radin
- The last HP book.
- Literally, anything.
- Summer
4 smells or scents you enjoy;
- Boy’s aftershave/cologne
- Cut grass
- New books
- Hollister – So Cal.
3 places you want to go;
- Australia
- Kenya
- California
2 favorite holidays;
- Portugal 2009
- Greece 2006
1 person you would marry on the spot;
- Joe Brooks.

Rant.

I like a sense of security, or a specific place I can call my own. A place to escape at some point during the day; my room. I hate it when people enter, move/ replace something without me knowing, or moving something into another place. I don’t mind so much when the cleaner comes, she has taken the hint that I like things to be kept in the same place. Everytime she rearranges my desk, she comes back to find things back in the CORRECT place, she hasn’t moved them since.
I hate it when my parents, mum especially, walks in looking for something. She doesn’t ask, just looks in my draws or wherever herself. She doesn’t have the thought to ask me if I mind, apparently she shouldn’t have to because its her own house?
I wish this could be my own domain. Under my permission, somewhere I can call my own. It’s like there are no secrets when you don’t officially own something.
And the fact that she doesn’t put it back how it was before she entered!

Even little things have started to annoy me. I like my room to be tidy, but when it’s rearranged by someone else, it drives me mad.
I’m not deliberately trying to hide something, I just like the feeling of security; a place of my own.
Enough of ranting, I’m in a good mood!

;xoxo

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, roots!"£"$£%£^%$^% D;
I need to get them re-done before summer officially starts. Excuse my laziness to do something with my hair, It's so hideous naturally.

3 exams left this week. We learnt the statistics syllabus in just under 4 months, whereas everyone else all over the country had the full 2 years to learn the course. In the next 2 days i think I'll be re teaching it all to myself. I hope my performance in the exam does not reflect this.

Maroon 5 'She Will Be Loved' makes me feel so nostalgic, brings back so many memories from last summer...

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley

yes.

Inarguably, the most gorgeous man alive;


Mr Adam Brody ;x


don't even try it.

After skipping two meals today, I am starting to envy Lucia's midnight KFC she is eating right now.
Today has been so unusual, I haven't been myself. I woke up late, after promising Lucia that I would be up at 8 to help her book tickets. I didn't realise I was so tired, I actually felt worse waking up at 12 midday.
I spent just over 3 hours this morning clearing out my room. I can't believe how much shit I found. I've thrown away sentimental things I've had for years, it feels so weird- I guess I have to say goodbye some time. My room is so empty now, after filling 4 black sacks. I found a collection of 11 shoe boxes scattered around the room. I ripped down all my posters/photos I had arranged over my wall, I want to paint the empty wall sometime, I've been inspired- I want to do it like this landscape.

RBC have asked for my level of ability of using MS Excel. I'm starting to worry about dealing with customer's finances.. I'm no pro at that program, however easy it may be to others. The thought of working 9-5 everyday is starting to dawn on me.

I have no reason to still be up, I'm going to bed.

If one more person texts me how the exam went, i'm going to rip my hair out.
Just to let you all know, I wont be getting that A* in the summer- I'm damn sure of it.
I got followed home today, again.
The joys of living in Bromley.
Carys' tomorrowwwwwwwww

Distraction from studying.

This is my punishment from playing guitar for days on end, the dents aren't fading, and it's starting to get really painful.
I hope its worth it in the end.
I can't wait for next week to be over, urgh. Everything will be over, and i'll have my life back again.
I'm going to have nightmares about geography tomorrow. Fuck my life, I wish I was motivated to study more. Still, it's pointless trying to do some at 11 at night.

I got accepted at the Royal Bank of Canada! I'm so glad i've got all that sorted in time, I'm excited. I'll be working for them from the 5th to the 16th July, up in the city. I think i'll have to catch a train everyday to Cannon street, they're located near Southbank

I miss the summer sun already, the past few days have been mild and rainy. I just want the sun back;








I have been at Carys' today, trying to get through the 9 topics of geography that we need to learn for Thursday. We suprisingly got about 4 hours done. I've been researching more acoustic guitars since I've been home, I want to buy a decent one so I can practice over the summer. I tried to learn 'I'm yours' again, but i still can't get hang of the beginning bit.
I think I should get some extra help with it.
andddddd I need to order a capo, although Lucia's suggestion of using a pencil and rubber band may substitute until i get a proper one.

Pointless post.

I've done nothing all day, except stare aimlessly at geography notes, and nearly fall asleep sitting up trying to read them. I'm going to actually kick myself when I get in the exam tomorrow and realise i've done shit all for preparing. I lack motivation so bad, fml.
Completely forgot about the second French exam. This week isn't starting off well.
On a lighter note, I downloaded 9 new albums this afternoon.
And I still need to watch the final of The Apprentice on iPlayer. I doubt i'll have time to tonight...
OH, And I tried to learn 'I'm yours' on the guitar by Jason Mraz. It's much trickier than it sounds, because he plays the chords a different way. But unlike studying, I have the patience to learn something I enjoy doing.
I'm hoping to buy a new acoustic for myself this week. I need to do more research on the type I want, I may end up getting a custom made one. We'll see.

XOXO

weeeekend.

As usual, I spent my saturday morning at the stables. I've been riding for nearly 8 years now, I can't believe how quickly time has gone by. I hope to be able to afford my own show horse when I've finished with school etc. I don't have the time or commitment to be looking after a horse full time at the moment. Duet is a horse that I ride, who belongs to Chelsfield.

So today was Ronni's birthday! She had a huge house party outside, and hired a bucking bronco for a few hours. After a lot of encouragement from the guys- Hollie and I braved to go on it. I was suprised that I lasted 33 seconds after Hollies impressive 6 (:
Hollie left before the game, and the rest of us went and watched England's first World Cup game in the out building at the end on Ronni's garden. It was like a cinema down there! Filled with sofas and a huge wide screen tv. Her house is truely amazing.
I got really into the game, and embarassingly showed how much I really knew about football. Stupid stupid goal keeper.
Rosie and I then got terrorised around the garden by Ronni's 4 year old cousins. They were really cheeky with shaking up the foster cans, and tricking us into opening them!
It was a really good day, it was a shame about the final score.


until tomorrow,

peace; XOXO

Moving on.

Well it seems like i'm not the only one having trouble. I've been told that i've changed, give me a bit of freedom. Please.

Got the last maths exam out the way thank god. If I don't get better than an A when the results come back, I will actually have a break down. I then had to go and spend a good hour setting up my portfolio of art work in the exhibition for the examiner.

It was Cary's day today, I love you! It was Lizzies idea to do something a little out of the ordinary...
and on the way home, not one of us noticed after 30 minutes of waiting by the bus stop, that it was actually out of service. No wonder we were recieving strange looks from the public passing by. I can't believe we missed the huge yellow posters all over the timetable and shelter showing it was out of use.
Carys was yet again was proud of the photos i took of the day, I really captured the moments (;


Lucia needs a copy of Along Came A Spider.
'Remember Me' for the next movie night ♥
I'm going to keep it short for tonight, I'm struggling to stay awake.




Rosie.

Blehhhhh

I don't know why i'm still bothering. You're ridiculously confusing, I just can't seem to work you out.
I'll let it settle.


Today the weather was miserable from the start, adds to the great mood. French didn't go particularly well, I couldn't believe how little I knew. I really hope my final grade is an improvement from the mock... it certianly doesn't feel like it's going to be.
It's great everyone else has very few exams left. Just great. I have a nice grand total of 9 to get through before the 3 weeks are up. Atleast i've got my last english exam out the way, I can't wait to burn that ripped up anthology. I grabbed some helpful advise from mr F before I went to the exam, i'm going to miss him, I can't believe he's been like a mentor to me for 5 years now.
I decided to get the bus for what felt like the first time this year home from school. It was full or lairy irritating lower years, all being lyk bareee kl 4 goiin to bromlie on dere own after skool. Oh how impressed we all are. They all did a great job of pissing off the public who were already on the bus, one woman just got up and demanded to get off the bus before it had reached a stop. One year 8 decided to have a nice chat with her friend the other end of the bus. I was delighted when a girl in my year told her to shut the fuck up, it kept them quiet... for a while.
I decided to get off a stop early with Christy, and walk home in the rain.

I've been eating constantly today, that's sure to put on a good pound. I'm supposed to be trying to lose it!



I need to start maths revision for tomorrow,
until next time;

Rosie
♥

Pouvez-vous parler français?

I've have finalised my Sixth form options for next year, providing I get the required grades at GCSE.
-Maths
-French
-Geography
-Photography

Je voudrais être très forte en français, parce que J'aime aller à l'étranger.

Since Summer 09' I have been keen on organizing a trip out to Canada for a year, after I finish year 13. I know i'm being very ambitious, but I believe it's possible. Like most people, I'd love to be able to afford to travel. I want to see as much of the world as I can, I like experiencing new ways of life and living, and mixing with other cultures.
Canada has always been a strong interest of mine. I've only ever been out of Europe once, and that was to South Africa when I was 2. I haven't been planning this trip alone, Lizzie will be accompanying me for the full year out there. We hope to rent an appartment (when I finally learn the meaning of 'saving money') and seek jobs ASAP. Lizzie has been like a sister to me the past 8 years of knowing her. We met in year 5 at a primary school near to where I live. Lizzie went out to Vancouver last year, and fell in love with the surrondings and people. She wants to take me out there to show me just what we are both missing.
In the upcoming months, I am going to try and contact family friends I know of who are currenting living out there. I hope they may be able to give Lizzie and I advise on looking for places to stay.
For 2 weeks in July, it is compulsory after exams that I attend some sort of work experience. I have applied to work at the Royal Bank of Canada in London for the full 2 weeks, but I am still awaiting a confirmation email from the Company.
Hope for the best!
We plan to fly out in summer 2012, when the Olympics are over. I'm not missing that for the world.


My mum told me one evening when we were talking about it, that she worries I may never want to return back to the UK. She is still happy to let me go, as she said one of her regrets in early life was not traveling when she had the chance and opportunity to do so. Who knows where I may be in 3 years time.

I need to go and make some lunch.
Until then,

peace;
XOXO

Colbie.

A friend of mine told me about this song of hers.
He plans on marrying her sometime soon :>


But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you.

♥

Summer has started.

The past week I haven't been up to a great deal. Luckily, half term came round pretty quick, and with exams this was just what I needed. I'm very lazy and I hate studying. I rarely get outbursts of motivation, and I lack concentration. The easiest way for me is to exclude myself from all forms of distraction, and completely isolate myself. So most days last week Lucia and I sat in the library for a few hours to get some sort of revision done. I haven't mentioned Lucia yet, but I will tell you more about her in another entry. She's too special, so deserves her own.
I spent most of last summer out with her, when she wasn't in France with her family. I think this year will be the same. We're both passionate about photography, and so we decided to go on an adventure. We looked up train tickets, and got a train from East Croydon station to the coast. I forget how much I miss the beach, I can't wait to move out of London.
The weather was perfect. We never really thought about how we would get from the station to the beach, turning up in an unknown area is all part of the fun. A nice young boy was keen to show us the way though.
We wanted to catch the sunset over the sea, neither of us really thought that the sun set from east to west, and we were on the south coast...
We still got some decent photos though!
Lucia photography and edit:

My photography:


We took some polaroids, too. Left the beach about 9pm, only to find our train had been delayed 19 minutes. It took about an hour and a half to get back to Croydon about half 10 at night. We weren't daring enough to get public transport home from such an area at that time of night. Or should I say, I wasn't brave enough.
'I had the best day, with you; today.'

New Day.

I had an english exam this morning, Media/non-fiction and writing to persuade/argue/advise. I've never been any good at English, I'll just have to wait and see how it goes.. I quite like analysing media articles, and creativing writing when I'm in the mood to do so; just under timed conditions I never seem to perform.

I bought a Canon SLR 450D a few weeks ago, I had been recommended this model by many friends. I'm still learning how to use it, adjusting manual settings for different affects. Being blonde, I decided to buy an SLR handbook; it's like the size of a textbook! I'm literally reading it like a bible.
The weather has been nice over the past week which has been great for half term. I should have spent more time studying but when it's hot, who wants to be sitting indoors alone with a bunch of notes..

Testing out, I got the dawg to model.


For a first attempt. Shame his tail was too much in focus.

Where to start.

My interests are constantly changing. Music taste, mainly. I think i'm one of those people who get bored easily, but i'm afraid of change? I guess I'm just difficult. I don't like losing things as I become attached easily. This mainly relates to people, not music; i'm going off topic already. Music is a passion of mine, i'm attempting to learn to play the guitar, when i have the chance to steal Ben's out his room. I love acoustic when i'm in the mood, and when nobody is home I like to sing and play songs by Chase Coy and Colbie Caillat. (i'm still a beginner) I never sing infornt of people, I have no where near enough confidence to do so.
I like 'indie' music, a lot, yes the stuff everyone assumes they are 'sooo into'. I'm a big fan of Scouting For Girls, The Kooks, Vampire Weekend at the moment. Not to forget Taylor Swift, she will always be a favourite of mine. Her and Colbie Caillat alike, I can relate to their lyrics. They're both so talented. Jason Reeves who duets with Colbie is also a good solo artist.
I hate it when artists I like get into the charts. I mean, good on them for becoming sucessful and gaining more fans- but once they become mainstream, I hear them constantly where ever I go and the magic dies. They become overplayed, and the song for me loses meaning.
When in the mood I can endure a bit of Eminem.

3 GCSES this week, I should by studying.

Until next time;

Peace
XOXO

Every end has a new beginning.

So I finally got round to posting something! This was created a few weeks back, when Lucia told me she was starting a blog herself. This, to others may be of no use. I'm hoping to use this blog as something to look back on myself, in years to come. I attempted to write a diary a few months ago, and only managed to keep up for about 3 days, then I got lazy. Seeing as I spend ridiculous amounts of time on my laptop, I thought using a blog online would encourage me to be more consistant with updating.
So, this for the future is something for me to look back on like a diary. I also want to improve the way I write, and express thoughts and emotions through words.

So here’s to the start of something new.